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Aku insan yang kerdil dijalan ini , Aku baru mula mendekati mencari apa sebenarnya keinginan hati ? Aku insan kerdil yang berserah kepada ILAHI.... Baru menjalani perubahan pada diri .... Aku insan yang pernah terlajak Pernah melakukan dosa insan yang hidupnya penuh pancaroba... dan kepada Allah aku kembali ... Berdoalah wahai sahabat ... Semoga aku mampu teus istiqomah dan perubahan ku ini di redhai ILAHI . Assalamualaikum .. Ana , Zubaidah .. Selamat Membaca :)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

hellooooo~!!!!!^^
what up all^^ i miss my blog ... my followers @ my friends~!!! muah muah muah!!!!!!!
sorry .... jarang da update2 blog .... bz sgt2x .... tp dun wori la~ bz mna pun sy selalu ingat kat blog n friend2 sy =D all of u sehat ba kn???= ))...sy pun shat gak .;) <3
kali ney byk cerita yg sy nak share~ byk sgt!! psal final exam! , psal mslh ngn mmber .. :(( .. so klu da BYK tu ntah dmna nak mula plak kn? eheh .. well lets start!

FINAL EXAM 
sebut tentang exam mesti semua pun xsenang duduk kan ?? rasa gelisah, gelabah ,, segala macam laa .. n byk sbb org2 rasa macam 2 .. kalau sy ,, sy rasa macam 2 coz takut fail! eheheh ...;p tp btul la .. tym exam ari 2 .. ada dua paper yg sy bimbang sgt2 .. 1st UTB .. waktu nak msuk exam hall ,, sy sempat nangis lagi tau .. sy tkut xdpt jwb .. trus trg .. byk2 subjek,, subjek ney yg bt sy down! sy gtau dkat kwan sy IRENE .. sy xnak msuk .. strt la sesi motivasi dkat tgga ..ahahah! lucu plak lau ingt blek .. dya nasihat kan sy ... jgn give up! try jwb yg smmpu bole~ byk la~ .. then tym 2 sy da jd ada dua sbb utk nangis~ 1st gara2 PAPER g seram tue .. n 2nd sbb sy tharu sgt dgn nasihat n dorongan dr kwn sy 2 .. well beb~ i know u'll read this!! tq soo much!~ luv u more n more~ eheheh =)) after kena motivate 2 sy msuk gak la exam hall 2 .. dengan slogan kata "i can do it" !! eheheh ;) n u know what??? abis jak paper tue .. sy set dkat fkiran sy .. "sy org paling rugi if xjwb paper td .. senang gila.. lebih senang dr paper subject2 kgemaran sy " ada la jgak yg gantung2 mjwb .. tp alhamdulillah xda la struk yg sy FIKIRKAN ,,, eheheh =p ... then paper 2nd tue .. actly... tnya la sapa2 yg pena amek paper ney .. mesti durang kata SUBJECT BUDAK2 .. uhuhuh .. tp ntah npa .. tym tu fkiran,, minda,, n jiwa sy xda dkat sy .. mlm sblum exam sy dapat bad story 4m someone .. (pasal someone ckp ttg sy ) n sy xdpt trima! uhuhuh .. prasaan sakit aty tym 2 tbawa2 tau .. (i am not going to blame other's here,, it's my own mistakes because didn't focus on my paper actly) :(( 
trus terang sy xyakin ngn jawapan sy .. uhuhuhuh:(( paper last n paling senang baa org kata! =.= p xpa la ... sy da try n gve the best on dat! sehabis mmpu gak .. tawakal jak la~ DEAR ALLAH ,, SHINING RESULT PLEASE~ amin ... setakat ney .. 2 jak la cita ttg FINAL EXAM sy .. ehehehe ..;)) friends : pray 4 me erk ??? harap2 dpt kputusan meletopp! ehehe .. ^^ amin.. 









Tuesday, March 8, 2011

even i hurt inside, i still manage to smile~:)



hai semua ..dr gambar yg ak post pasti korang dpt teka daa apa cita ak ari ni kan ?? uhuhuh ..:(
ak sedih sgt2 ari ni ...ak gduh ngn kwn ak ..., then sorang lg kwn ak remove ak dr friendlist fb dya ...uhuhuh ... ak sdih sgt2~!! ak xsngka gini jd nya~! krna gurauan semata2 baa~! uhuhuh .. tym ak gduh ngn bf ak ..xda ak rsa sesedih ini tau! xPEna pun ..~! tp bla kwn ak bt mcm 2 ..SAKITTT~! bkn sorang tau ..tp 2 ... yg sorang ni ..ak da anggp dya mcm abg ak sndri daa...(wlupun bru knal) dya baik sgt bg ak ...tp xsngka plak ...dya sgup buang ak sbg one of dya pnya member~ i say its ok ..but honestly ...its nOt ok~!! (for that person if u read tis ..u can gembra smbil lompat2 la arr ...coz make me fell down ~!) tq:)

yg sorang lg~ ntah npa ...dya da lma knal ak ..ak ada msalh apa pun ..smua ak kctau dya ..smua ak kongsi... (lelaki jgak) .tp ntah tba2 td ..ak gurau2 jak ..mcm dya dak knal ak ..then dya bt stement mcm ni .."Da la pyda,mlas tul nk lyn ko ni bnyk tul songe ko...blah la.." uhuhuhuhu ! sgt2 aku sedih~:( xsngka kan .. bt org 2 ..lau ko bca ni ..ak mo tnya ko ... npa? selama ko knal ak ni ..ak byk mnyusah kn ko ka?? slma ak kongsi2 mslh sma ko 1 beban sma ko ka??? npa ko xkctau ak awal2?? ko mls sma ak .. ak nie byk songeh ...ko mnyampah sma ak ...npa xdr dlu ko ckp ..? npa bru ari ni ko kctau~?? slma ni ak xbyk kwn yg ak pcya ..ko jak tmpt ak mluah mslh ak ..skg ak da xda kwn utk itu daa.. xpala ... mgkin lpas nie ko akn say sorry ngn ak ... ok ..i will 4give u ...(2 pun lau ada) after that ak xkn jd mcm dlu ... skali ati ak tguris slmanya akn kekal ... i will not hate u ~ tp ak xkn srapat dlu da ngn ko ...(xmau da bt ko rsa mls sma ak) ..tq so much coz pena singgah d hati ak sbg "sahabat" ak k?? ak btrima kasih sgt2 ngn ko~ kwan xslmanya jd kwn ...n ak pegang kpcayaan itu ... ! its ok~! ( wlupun hkikatnya its not ok) but i learn sometg new from u~ thnx dude~! 

from now on ..ak akan lebih bhati2 tym bkawan ...will not jokes ka apa ka ... yg paling pntg ak akn brusaha sedaya upaya ak supaya kawan2 ak yg tggal mc ada skg tidak rsa "MALAS" sma ak ...n tdk akan remove ak dr friendlist drg ...tQ so much~! 

ahahaha ..sory ..a lil bit emo ...but i mean it~! SEKALI HATI TERGURIS .. SELAMANYA IA TERCALAR ... 

assalamualaikum ...:)

Monday, March 7, 2011

konichiwa~^^

hye smua ...slmat ptg ...sori ...title post ak kali ni xda kna mengena dengan post ak ..ahahaha...da xtau mo fkir apa..mcm ni la jd nya....XD ~urhmmm,,,..da lma ak xupdate blog ak nie kan ...uhuhuhuh ... soriiiii ... klu d k.k nie ak tggal d HOSTEL  ...so xda line wifi ..uhuhuh ...kalau mo on9 kna pegi C.C ..uhuhuh ... malaasssss~ :PP
ok ...disebabkan ada kwn ak sorang 2 yg ckp kat ak
 "fyda update2 la jgak blog kaw 2" ahahaha ...maka ak pun disinila...UPDATE ..kunun ..eheheh :p 
 aku xda byk sgt crita yg ak nak share sgt ...sebab hari2 ak kat sini pun sgt la boring ...>,< 
tp xpa ..ak try bg jgak sdkit crita ttg hidup ak k ...( nie blog ak kan so,mmg la ttg ak jak) -,-
ahahahahXD

semalam 6/3/2011 .. birthday papa ak yg ke-60 tahun ...
HappY birthDay pa.. tp xda celebrate la sebab jauh sgt ..uhuh ... just bg wish ja ..(sian papa) 
nak djdkan crita ..pg 2 ak lewat bgun ..then ...waktu bgun ja ak ingt nak wish ..tp credit xda ..>,< 
ak pun direct la mndi apa smua...urmmm ...(tym 2 ak ada training)  ..
then ,trun ja ak g kdai ak g isi rload la ni ...trus p campus bab ada training(silat cekak hanafi) 
best taw ..xboring ...:D
training punya training  reload ak xmsuk2 jgak ..then ak dpt tau dr adik ak yg bongsu ..papa merajuk sebab anak dya ni lmbt wish ..ehehehe ..lucu taw! then xlma pas 2 ..reload ak msuk gak ..ehehe. trus la kol papa ..tp papa xjwb ..then dya off hp ..pnya la ak sedih ..smpai nak nangis tau tym 2 ...uhuhuhuh ... pastu ak hantar msg pjuk papa ak ...mcm2 la ak ckp( mmg paling pndai lau amek ati papa) ehehehe:) syukur la..papa ak tmkn pjuk ...ehehehe ... hilang jugak krisauan yg bersarang dlm hatiku ..ehehehe:P

HappY birtHdaY mY father ...^^ (Mr Kasim Chang) i LovE yOu so mUch ^^


ok ...selesai cita ttg bday papa ak ..ni ada 1 gi cita ...psal MAn Utd kalah Vs liverpool semalam ..uhuhuhuh.. sgt2 kcewa .. buruk sgt mainan man utd smlm kalah 1-3 baa ..uhuhuh..:(  ... kmi stay dkat kalling food centre(KFC) smlm ..ahahah:D tgk match nie ..almaklum la...rumah kmi xda astro ..uhuhuh..:( dlm rmai2 tu .. sorg ja kwn ni pmnat liverpool pnya la dya gembira sakan AYAM dya menang~ yg c peminat Man Utd ni plak ..diam2 ja la ksian ..uhuhuh ... (da kalah mna dpt ckp byk kn) ehehehe:) tp xpa ...next match Man Utd mesti maw menang ..ihihihihi^^

urrmmmm ....msa sedang jalan ni..ada byk keja nak bt ..jap g lau smpat sy upload msuk gmbar smlm erk ...:D  jumpa lg d lain hari^^ muaHhhhhhXxxx~!




Wednesday, February 16, 2011

MauLid an-Nabi ~

hye all^^
im back again ..:)
now i will share my story about Maulid Nabi Festival that happened yesterday. :)
i have intensionally my day to coincide with this festival, which celebrates the birth of the Prophet and is celebrated in a big way here in Kota Kinabalu.
After 7.30am the celebration was start. The procession start at Padang Bandaran ,going around the main street before hitting towards Dewan Saadah,Wisma Muis as far as 4km.
Actually it was many processions, not one. Each group of revelers were from a collage, or religious school, and were led by their teachers. Along the way, they played their kompangs (i forgot what these things were called in, so im using the malay word for them!) and sang praises, all the while jumping around and making merry. It was a competition too, with the groups all trying to outdo each other with the best performance in front of a judge.
at the road, i found my heels ropes was broke . i become uncomfortable. can't walk as fas as others. but it's funny also,because my friend shoes also broke.. we continued our procession with non-stop laugh along the way..ahahaha;D
without our conscious, someone have took a photo of my friend shoes that already broke and upload it to his facebook acount .. he is Mr/Sir Zain ..(one of Unirazak staff) that are so friendly with the student ..tq sir^^ 
i am so happy for the festival, i hope next year i will able to have good health so i can join the team of procession again;)


here are some photos of me at the festival ...











credit to mr zain=)




Thursday, February 3, 2011

My DreaMs ...-,-



Hye all ,here are some story that i want to share with all of you .. its about my dreams that i having since i was 15th... (the same person on times)

is it true theres like a connection of dreams through our brains? (confused) I mean, like for example, I had a dream about this boy, and through out the globe a boys dreams the same thing but about me..(still confused?)


Okay,now, Im a 20 yr old girl, I had this AMAZING DREAM, I met the boy I've ever seen in my life! (literally I think I may have seen him before in reality, I don' t know), the same age as me, we talked, we spend time bonding together, it probably went on for a day in my dream, then there's a bunch of bullies (i don't know them) pushed me and the boy helped me. Im like what?! and then I woke up, I got sooooooooo pissed off, because I reall thought it was all real, the feeling and experience of falling in love and even though I woke up, I still I had that feeling. I know this is wierd but Im trying to find the boy in reality that was in my dream...maybe I've seen him before or destiny...I don't know...:(


could that boy be real in reality? that the boy dreaming the same scenario ...?

It was so wierd, I even remembered the whole thing that happened in my dream! It was kind a like dejavu, you feel that dream is going to happen in reality, it had such a strong feeling when I woke up, I almost lost my mind...it was amazing,. until now ...the age of 20 ..i still have to dream about this boy ..(i dont know who)
I really REALLY want to meet the boy in my dream again, i can feel that he want to tell or share something with me that i dont know what. so,i hoped if u are kind of the boy please, i need to talk with you.



maybe this is a stupid funny story or what laa.. but for me this is important! so much ..... hope you will understand...:)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Chinese eve ~:)



Hye all ...^^


tomorrow will be Chinese new year rite??? so tonight will be the time all of family eat together .. chi da fan~:D

yaa.. this time im just back from mkn2 wit my fmily ..ahahaha..:D zhen de dai bao le ...u_u

u know what ..i just ate crabs! (i am a girl who can't eat this food actlly ...=alergic) but i still wan eat! hahaha! baa nnt mlm pndai2 la arr.. cover sndri gatal2 smua ..huhuhuhu..:( honestly ...im not scared!   hahah..bgaruk pun bgaruk la~ hahaha!XD

baa,,,,here are some photos of me ..yg smpat ambil td ... xbyk ..coz im just focus on the food ..hahahah!

enjoy it^^








TO ALL MY FAMILY (CHANG) HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ..
GONG XI FA CAI ... WAN SHI RU YI ..:)




Sunday, January 30, 2011

NeW yEar ...~:)

HalUuuuuuuu ~

hye aLL .... Long time nO see rite??? i'm sO sorry .... for tis past days i was so bz with my seLf  ... 
celebrate new year with my bFF ...
getting my education at Unirazak ..
(lots of briefing n classes to be attended ) 
n the most thing is i  forgot my password!!!!! nob!! hahah! btw ..im here now ..to blogging again ... hahah!

Lets start my important story that i wanna share wit all ... k?
 first are the day i celebrated new years with my friends on 1st time in my life ... :)
it was at 31st December 2010 ... there's no more special event actually .. Just doing BBQ , n takes photos only ... but im still happy on ..^^ that because it was really my 1st time celebrates new years ....:D and ..the  

here are some photos at the event ... enjoy it k ..






sorry,,,i can't share more ... coz i have not enough time ... and my internet line also very slow for tis....
sorry again ...:) if u wanna see more you can go to my Facebook album "new year album"

and it might be too late for me ...but here i wish happy 2011 new year to all ^^



When you're lonely, I wish you Love! When you're down, I wish you Joy! When you're troubled, I wish you Peace! When things seem empty, I wish you Hope! Have a Happy New Year!

Best regards;
fyda chang^^




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